So Far NOT So Good, 2014!

What you are about to read is a modge-podge of a rambling, and you might not even make it to the end. There are more exciting blog posts out there today, filled with bright, sunny pictures and a life-changing craft or tutorial, I’m sure. This is not one of those posts.

So far, 2014 is not my friend. It’s probably because I left 2013 with a lot of stress, and it’s not like a new year will just wipe that away. So, I won’t go into detail, but I feel like almost every aspect of my life is super stressful right now, and most of that is related to financial stress. It’s hard for me to admit that money is an issue, because most of it is because of poor decisions Dom and I make financially. I’m pretty sure most young people go through it, and we will most certainly learn from our mistakes, but… ugh! Makes me feel like a failure. I just wonder if we will ever get it right or if we will always be behind.

In other news, we’re moving! I’m so so excited and I’m 100% sure we will be much happier in this place than our current one. We move February first, and I’m excited to say that this place is worth showing pictures of, and I won’t be embarrassed to have people see it (as long as we can keep it tidy…). Unfortunately, the move is also the source of our stress in many ways. Mostly because we have so.much.stuff. and we are dreadinggg the actual moving process. Also because moving isn’t usually free… we’re going to have to get a moving truck for our furniture, probably paint two of the rooms, and, obviously, come up with the security deposit and first month’s rent. We’re keeping our fingers crossed that we get our security deposit back from our current place, which will really help a lot.

So, that will be exciting!

When I get stressed and start to feel the weight of everything on my shoulders, it’s all I can think about. I become obsessed with it, and I almost wish I was the type of person that could just say “well, it’ll all work out somehow”, but I’m not. Dom is, and I hate him for it. I wish there was a way for me to de-stress and think about things with a more optimistic approach. It doesn’t help that I don’t have any sort of project going on at the moment, which would distract me a little. I should probably create my own project, or try to learn something new.

I also have a Marshall’s giftcard, so maybe I’ll go shopping. But that’s not a good habit to get into when you have money problems, is it?

Well, hopefully when we finally see the light at the end of all our stress (so, probably never) there will be a lesson learned or a moral to the story. Hopefully we will have learned some things about financial responsibility, or even just coping with stress. One of my goals for this year was to become more financially responsible and to set myself in the right direction in that area, but so far it’s not looking too hot. But, a lot can happen in a year, so I won’t judge you yet, 2014.

I think one of the things that might make me feel better is to start focusing on getting my body healthier and something that I’m proud of. I think Dom and I are at that stage of getting comfortable and we’re forgetting that it still matters that we look good, but it might just mean something sort of different. Before, we were trying to look good to impress one another, but now we have to focus on looking good (and feeling good) for ourselves. So, in celebration of me, I’m getting a gym membership tomorrow (plus they have a deal going right now that I can’t pass up), and I’m not even going to feel bad about the small price to pay. Hopefully it’ll make me feel so good that I stick with it and see results.

So there- that’s my modge-podge of a rambling! Happy Wednesday!